Master has instructed
me to write another blog entry on a particular aspect of my
submission to him, that I remain chaste.
I am not to cum under any circumstances without his explicit permission.
This has proved difficult so far though it is already getting easier.
As I type this it occurs to me that many who read this post may not
understand why someone would willingly consent to such a thing and I
at one time in my life would have been one of them.
After all I like so
many others have enjoyed the freedom to cum as many times a day as I
so wished for reasons that were entirely my own be they pure
unmitigated horniness or a simple act of boredom on a night, morning
or midday with little else to do. For over a decade my sexual relief
was mine to command and I am not ashamed to admit that I commanded it
on a very frequent basis and the idea of falling asleep without
cumming seemed almost laughable to me.
So why then would I
agree to stop in the first place? Why would I continue to stop? After
all my relationship with master is new and due to its nature there is
nothing he could do physically to prevent me from indulging. Yet
whilst the idea of cumming may have never left my head over the last
few days the idea of actually doing so, despite the ache in my groin
and the few extra half hours I lay in bed awake at night, has never
once entered my head.
What then has been
powerful enough to hold my hands and hips at bay? That as well, is
something that may need explaining. It is in a way difficult to
articulate, but I suppose it can be summarised as a desire to make
another man happy coupled with the, for lack of a better phrase, a
warmth-laden tranquillity that seems to come from submitting to,
obeying and yes being 'owned' by another man! My chastity is a
very physical representation of these feelings.
My desire to please and
obey my master's order even when it tares me from a habit and
pleasure in which I have indulged for so long is far greater that a
carnal desire for release. One provides me with a brief physical and
emotional sense of bliss whilst the other in one sense torturous
provides a far greater emotional sensation that I do not at this time
feel I have adequate words to describe.
As I stated in an
earlier post honesty is one of the greatest foundations of my
relationship with master and I have resolved to apply that honesty to
my posts on this forum; I can not categorically state that I will
never succumb to my urges whilst I am with Master, but I can state
that I shall put all that I have into keeping my word. I know the
consequences of breaking my promice of chastity would not only result in punishment from
master; but also a powerful feeling of failure,
disappointment and betrayal on my part.
This post and it's attempt is to explain why I intend to remain chaste are, I hope testament to that promise and a contract of trust I have made with my master.
Boi Jase
This post and it's attempt is to explain why I intend to remain chaste are, I hope testament to that promise and a contract of trust I have made with my master.
Boi Jase
I too get a great deal of satisfaction from pleasing another. Much greater than merely pleasing myself.
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